About My Den & Me

Striving For Holiness With A Catholic Heart

“The purpose of our growing in union with God, becoming more holy, is never, never, just for ourselves, that we may grow in sanctity…. The final purpose is that we become more holy, and united with God, that we may be more effective channels of His grace to others. This is the purpose of becoming holy. This is the fundamental motive for growing in sanctity. Why? So, that being united with God ourselves, we might then be used by God, in the measure of our union with Him.”

“Holy people are used by God to sanctify others,
humble people to bring humility to others, patient people to bring patience, chaste people to bring chastity.” (Fr John Hardon, S.J.)

Lioness blog is my outreach.   It is the lioness who feeds the pride for the most part. She is also fierce in defending her young. That is what I want to do in serving God, provide food for thought and sustenance  for the soul, be it in a very small way. My part will be as small as I am , but God can use the small, the weak, the nobody. 

About me:

I am a wife, a mother, a Sinai nurse, an artist and writer of sorts.  I trained as a registered nurse at Mt. Sinai Hospital School of Nursing. While working the wards as a student, anxiety was a constant companion. The old wards were a  sprawling array of patient-filled beds in all directions. I thought, “too many beds, too many patients”. I often felt insecure, particularly on night duty.  IV’s could be running out or someone in trouble in a back room down the hall. We didn’t have the fancy monitors of now-a-day. Occasionally, my anxieties spoke-up  in my dreams, even after nursing school.

One memorable dream went like this: I was on the ward, and the ward was immense, looking more like a castle than a hospital. There were floors covered in beds, on floors above and below me, and patients all around down endless halls. Suddenly, I became aware of a great lion roaming the passage ways. His appearance of strength and purpose should have been threatening.  However, the lion prowled as though searching or monitoring. Instead of fear, I was flooded with a profound sense of security.  End of dream!

The dream came in a time of uncertainty.  My husband, Jim, had just started back to school after  serving in the army as an advisor in Viet Nam. Now he was home. We had two little daughters.  We were living with Jim’s mom, his dad having died just months earlier.  I was working nights in a newborn intensive care unit.  Waking from this dream, I wanted to know who the lion was?  I prayed, and then opened my Bible. The passage that caught my eye read, “Put in my mouth persuasive words in the presence of my husband the lion” Esther C:  24.*  I was ecstatic!  I took the dream to identify the lion as my husband who with God’s providential help would take care of us.  In other words, “Not to worry.”

Since the Lord speaks on many levels, and with multiple meanings, in this day I think the Lord is saying, “I am your Husband the Lion who guards and protects the passages of your life.  You are My bride, My castle.”

The Mission of My Life

God has created me to do Him some definite service. He has committed some work to me which He has not committed to another. I have my mission. I may never know it in this life, but I shall be told it in the next. I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good; I shall do His work. I shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth in my own place, while not intending it if I do but keep His commandments. Therefore, I will trust Him, whatever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him, in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him. If I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. He does nothing in vain. He knows what He is about. He may take away my friends. He may throw me among strangers. He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide my future from me. Still, He knows what He is about.  John Henry Cardinal Newman

 “When speaking of spiritual matters an ignorant person like myself,” says St.Teresa of Avila, “must write much that is superfluous and even alien to the subject before coming to the point.  My readers must be patient with me as I am with myself ..”

All posts are copyrighted, 2009 Joann Nelander (AKA:  Lioness)

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